Last week my dad died after a long bout with Alzheimer's disease. Here is a picture of us about 10 years ago before he went into a nursing home. I wish he could have seen Jasmine, but I'm sure he wouldn't have remembered. We were pretty close when I was younger. He would take me to horse shows, painted my horse trailer with my name on it, and converted his Eagle Scout box into a tack box for me. Then I didn't see or communicate with him much into adulthood. Our family is quite strange in that way. Most families I know keep in touch with one another and are supportive. In our family it's "everyone for yourself", not much support physically, emotionally or financially. Somehow on some level I chose that, but now I've have created a family with my neighbors and their extensive biological family. One of my main goals with Jasmine is to make sure she has the family support that I didn't/don't have. I would like her to have positive input in the choices she makes in her life.
So far, I'm not doing so well in the boyfriend/partner/potential husband category. After many years of dating a string of idiots from match.com and related sites, I'm just not focusing on it any more. If I meet someone, I would love it... that would be great, but I'm just not even looking any more. It really shouldn't be that hard with so many billions of people on the planet to find someone that is spiritual/metaphysical, happy, not "depressed" all the time, into a healthy lifestyle, actually has an income, is abundance minded, loves kids and animals, and is passionate in general about life. That doesn't sound like much to ask, does it....? Apparently, it is. I'm just keeping my mind and options open at the moment.
I love you and miss you Dad.
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